Oh the Preparations...And We're So Blessed

I'm just going to start out by saying that this child.....is blessed. Already, even before he arrives, he has had SO MANY in my life extend their hands to shower him with love and support. While we have much that is left unknown about the coming year, there are no doubts in my life that we are and will be absolutely surrounded by an incredible network of love. 

Several months ago, in my process of well, processing, and accepting an unexpected pregnancy, I decided to re-arrange the house to create space for the baby. While my general plan is to engage in co-sleeping and have the baby sleep on the other side of my bed, I still wanted him (we now know that it's a him) to have a space of his own. On a weekend day when I was able to scoop together a few hours of actual energy, I rearranged almost every room in the house and started creating a space for baby boy based on odds and ends I already had around the home. 

The chest of drawers? Thrifted years ago by my mom. It's been hanging out in my closet and now holds 3 months worth of hand-me-down clothes from my nephew's baby and hand-me-down receiving blankets from my coworker's kids.

The sheep skin on top? Will make a great changing pad once covered with an old towel, is hypoallergenic, washable, and has been in our family for decades (my aunt brought it back from a trip to Australia).

The Ikea chair that luckily bounces? Thrifted five years ago by my ex, recovered in thoroughly washed outdoor/indoor material by my aunt, and tossed with a thrifted knitted throw.

In the closet? My old childhood shelf full of additional hand-me-down clothes for 3-6 months, thrifted shoes, hand-me-down breast pumps, left over nursing pads & items from gal pals, and a few wood toys and books. A hand-me-down scrubbed & washed infant to booster car seat and a used REI infant hiking pack from my college gal friend. A bag of (newly purchased) glass bottles. Two hand-me-down wraps from my coworker and a larger carrier from my nephew. A bin full of old wood blocks for eventual play times.

That box on the floor? Hand-me-down cloth diapers. I intend to mainly use the Portland-based Tidee Didee Diaper Service though and have an account started with them. One of my local gal friends is making re-usable cloth wipes. (Based on advice from my naturopathic colleague, I also tend to use Naty (compostable disposable) diapers that have reduced chemicals for travel, etc and some chlorine free disposable wipes). 

The basket on the side? Hand-me-down and homemade burp clothes, and I plan to go through my stained kitchen towel stash in the garage to add to it. Mom is also making bibs and a few more burp clothes from fabric she has on hand.

On the walls? The elephant print was painted by one of my high school friend's father and I purchased it from him several years ago. The safari animal mobile was purchased on this summer's trip to Tanzania. The phrase sign and the picture frames have both been hanging in my house for several years already.

The newest additions to the room within the last month include the crib.....purchased used from online, super easy to set-up, and included sheets. The bassinet in the corner loved both my cousin's babies and her husband... and will eventually make it's way into my (small) master bedroom. The bassinet removes from the stand and might actually go on the bed next to me to ensure the animals can't roll over the little man.

The only other "major" thing to purchase is a used Bob jogging stroller. I have been eyeballing them on Craigslist and already have the cash set aside for it, but will wait until it's closer to get one.

I did create a very small registry with toxic free wood toys, multiracial children's books, the disposable diapers & wipes, and safer personal care products etc mainly because I've had requests from additional people who want to give something. There's also a registry on the diaper delivery service and one of my relatives is going to set up a meal delivery calendar that people can participate in. 

I'm truthfully hoping to forgo an actual baby shower (my female relatives and I have been discussing a post delivery local wine tour instead), as I tend to struggle with too much attention on just me at these types of events....and I tend to struggle with receiving items that are unnecessary or uh, toxic :) I'm not trying to be ungrateful....but baby showers and many of the items that are gifted have always set me on...edge....

For instance, there are many additional hand-me-down toys available as well, but I'm also trying to be mindful of plastic exposures (and mouthing). Generally speaking there are still wood or cloth varieties of most toys available and I'm hopeful that he mainly engages with toys of this nature...at least in the beginning. While plastic has its purposes (and is impossible to fully get away from it), many of these items also contain chemicals that can off-gas and/or be ingested by babies. While most toys no longer are made from BPA, there's usually a new chemical in its place that we don't know the longer term effects of...and phalates and vinyl can be used in plastic items as well.

Additionally, one of my main reasons for wanting mostly used items is the fact that it uses less resources versus continually producing new items (thereby decreasing consumerism and the overall environmental footprint)...and truthfully used items tend to have already had the ability to off-gas or wear off some of the initial potentially toxic residues. When a baby only uses items for so short a time period, it makes more sense to just re-use furniture, clothing, linens, diapers, etc.

Over this past weekend, I also investigated safer baby personal care products (using Environmental Working Group's Skin Deep database), re-enrolled myself in Organics To You which is an organic produce delivery service (I need to get much more mindful about pesticide exposures again), and ordered some additional Oregon based natural personal care products for myself and the baby (Wild Carrots Herbals based out of Enterprise, OR (NE Oregon) and the Etsy shop of EarthMineralCosmetic based out of Grants Pass, OR). 

While I'm trying to investigate and make the "healthiest" choices possible for the little one, I recognize that the best made plans tend to go awry :) He could decide he won't breastfeed, he might sleep better in his own room, I might get so tired that I only eat crap food, and the list goes on and on. And truthfully, chemical exposures are unavoidable....I'm just hoping to lessen the burden that is initially upon him (the average newborn baby already has a body burden load of 180 toxins in its cord blood)....and to be mindful of trying to make choices that both lighten the load for the environment he's headed into and increase the potential that he'll have a healthier life ahead.

While it's been incredible to take count of all the thrifted/gifted/hand-me-down items, we've already been blessed with.....The thing I'm most grateful for however is the amazing supportive network we have surrounding us: the love that is shared, the advice that is offered, the excitement that has flowed, the acceptance that has been unconditional (even toward my hippy, healthy ways), and the fact that this child will arrive into a strong tribe of men and women who believe in him and are working to create a happier, healthier, fuller future for him to live within. 

So now here's to the next 4.5 months of relaxing, hopefully not stressing, sleeping as much as I can, saving as much as I can, growing what I hope will be a healthy, outdoor loving baby...and just plain being mindful of the many blessings that already are so apparent in this happy, healthy, full life.

Thanks for being part of this journey 💕

Catching Up Over Coffee.....

If we were to meet up for a cup of coffee (which I so gladly relish these days after not being able to stomach a cup for 14 solid weeks)......

....I would first want to know how you are doing. What's been going on in your life? What's on your heart? What are you pondering? What are your worries? And how are the details of your life unfolding?

...you might remark over the fact that there's no hiding my pregnancy any longer. At just about 20 weeks, I no longer fit in my original pants, my breast size is at least a cup larger, my body fat stores are higher, and there's a definite wide bump that now looks like more than just a few extra packages of cookies on my waistline. I'd probably tell you that overall I'm feeling better although there is the occasional day that leaves me laying on the floor of my office due to light-headedness and I'm still always tired. I'd also tell you just how grateful I am for the great diversity of maternity clothes that have been loaned by 2-3 of my dear gals and purchased new-to-me by my dear mother. Beyond picking up a few more staple items, I'm already pretty much set with a solid wardrobe for both work and regular activities. It never fails that feeling good externally also impacts a level of feeling good internally.

...because you know me, you might ask about my physical activity level. I'd probably share that I'm barely sweating these days, although I'm trying to be mindful of walking the dogs several times a week and getting in one (3ish mile) hike on the weekends. I am truly hoping to get up to the snow at least 1-2x this winter in order to go snowshoeing. In my mind, I envisioned trying to run consistently throughout my pregnancy and continuing to be very physically active, however I'm actually feeling okay with just being pretty gentle with my body and conserving energy as I can to get through longer days.

...I might tell you about how I'm still working both jobs, which means that I teach on Tuesday evenings and spend at least one weekend day grading. After a stressful last year, I'm probably also share that I'm feeling pretty fortunate regarding the group of students this year and the courses I'm teaching. I plan to continue teaching both jobs through next term and then will mainly be working from home for just my full-time position in spring. However there is much in the air regarding work for the coming year, mainly due to me not being sure that I can work a full-time schedule when I know I can't afford full-time child care. I'm trying not to stress about it and am seeing what options present as it gets closer.

....In good financial news, I just re-paid my credit card off, will have my car fully paid off next month, and will hopefully (barring any usual car issues, medical issues, unexpected expenses that can always arise) have a bit saved by the time the little one arrives. There's still one large debt that will still now be hanging over my head for at least the next 5-10 years, but at least financially things are "seeming" manageable.

...In relation to that I might also tell you that I'm halfway through the application process for the next level needed for my schooling, aka potentially returning for a doctorate. I'm not sure that next fall is the best timing nor if I will be accepted/funded, but if I want to continue in academia then a PhD is a requirement of the profession. More on this......later.

...I might also tell you that Major (the cat) has a love affair with this child and I'm already brainstorming ways to ensure that he doesn't attempt to sleep curled up next to the baby upon its arrival. For several weeks, he literally slept right next to the fetus...and now he's transitioned to sleeping on all the items in the baby's room. Ha!

....while Major is pretty intuitive, the dogs have yet to seem to notice too many changes. And Roxi is currently battling skin allergies that I'm trying to home remedy. (Some of her allergies seem to be stress induced, so it might be that she actually is cognizant of some changes and isn't adjusting well...)

....I'd probably tell you that best bud is finally heading back to the Portland area for what might be a few months. While he might not be crashing in the guest room during all that time, I'm still looking forward to having at least a few regular hours of uncontrollable belly laughter and being able to bounce thoughts around with someone who truly gets me, knows how to uplift me, and yet isn't afraid to hurt my feelings if needed.

....I might also tell you that I've been spending time re-immersing in some of my grad school literature and environmental health topics. I just finished re-reading Sandra Steingraber's Having Faith, which was a hugely impactful book for me to read several years ago. I'd forgotten some of the research she shares regarding toxic exposures and child health outcomes, but the book is also fascinating just due to her review of the development changes that occur within the fetus. (She's an biologist/ecologist, who gets pregnant, discusses the pregnancy, and also reviews some of the major environmental concerns impacting health outcomes across the globe.) It would not be the best thing for a pregnant woman who had no knowledge of these topics to read during her pregnancy, but I truly feel it's a book and a topic that more people need to be aware about. (Such as, the average newborn is born with 180 toxins in his/her cord blood....) I also just picked up her other two books: Living Downstream (her first book looking at cancer outcomes based on exposures) and Raising Elijah (raising kids in a toxic world). Since I'd never officially read it, I also picked up Rachel Carson's Silent Spring.

...I'd probably also tell you that I just read most of Ina May's Guide to Childbirth. (She's a national midwifery and natural childbirth guru.) This book was referred to me by many of my friends. I belong to a circle of incredible women of all types but many of my friends & family have delivered naturally. While I fully support natural childbirth, I'm not going to lie that now that it's here I'm a bit on the fence even knowing some of the issues and challenges that the medications available can bring. Reading through Ina May's book was uplifting and did give me much to think about and brainstorm on this topic (including some additional strategies to assist with natural labors). While a few pieces seemed "out there" and there were a few statistics that seemed to be presented slightly off, I appreciated the information within the second half of the book. (The first half is full of personal stories that I appreciate but found cumbersome also.) If you have delivered a baby, I might also ask for your input on why you made the choices you did and how it went? (I seem to be asking everyone this question :))

....if you're like many of my friends and family, you'd probably ask me if I plan to find out the sex of the child....and I'd tell you that I am for the sake of my mother and that we "should" find out at the ultrasound on Wednesday.

....I'd probably end coffee by asking you if you have plans for the upcoming holidays (if you celebrate them) and reflecting upon how ready I am for what can be the coziness and comfort of the season, that I'm looking forward to getting a tree, and planning on just doing donations to organizations for some of my family and gift cards for the teens/kiddos. I'm looking forward to family time, good nutritious food during this upcoming week, and lots of time to hone in on the blessings and gratitudes that are present.

Then I'd give you a big hug and let you know how fabulous it was to see you & catch up....and how much I appreciate you in my life as a valuable person and/or friend before wishing you well for the week ahead!